All We Want: Neighbours to the Rescue
We don’t always like ourselves. We don’t always feel good about who we are. We don’t always wake up in the morning and think: Nice. We don’t always look forward to the day. There are times when we would rather not have any more days. Or nights. We are not always fans of existing. We … Read more
Animal Instincts: Men and Their Urges
When a beautiful man slips through your fingers there’s not much you can do. You might never see him again. In cities like London you are always losing people. Yesterday at the sauna I lost two. (Somewhere in my head is the Oscar Wilde line about the misfortune of losing one parent, but two!? he … Read more
Gay Man Has Sex with Woman, Almost
During the lunch break, while the others went for rice and chicken soup at Barshu on Frith Street, I went to one of those acupuncture/herbal medicine/massage places on Shaftesbury Avenue to try and get some relief from my shoulder and neck pain. A friend had suggested I go for a chair massage. They’re great, she … Read more
Doing It with Little Guys
Time passes and you forget. He was small, that you do remember, no more than 5′. His name was… what was his name? A Chinese name. Two characters. I think he said his name was William. Yes, I said, but is that your name in Malaysia, too? I showed off my ten words in Mandarin, … Read more
Being Inside (The Weeks of Nada)
I’ve been busy. Let’s just say I’ve been in a place where sex was not an option. Masturbation – yes; and a lot of that was done, so much so that I have started to think maybe I could spend the rest of my life having phone sex, coming up with various scenarios and talking … Read more
All You See Is: Man
Our physicality is also a narrative. What we look like is often how we are seen, and what people see is what they desire us for. Inside I am not a daddy, I am not masculine (whatever the fuck that means), I am not butch or tough or muscular. But on the outside I am … Read more
I’ll Be Back
The heat last night made it impossible for you to work or think. London has been gloriously hot for the past three days. But in your flat you were getting restless. You back was sticking to your chair – that’s how hot it was. Besides, you’d been working all day and you hadn’t had sex … Read more
The Kiss and the Revolution
Qu’est-ce que c’est a kiss? Wikipedia says it’s the meeting of the mouth with another mouth or other parts of the body, or an object. Kissing the way we know it here in the West is very much a Western thing. Not everyone kisses the way people kiss here. What we may think of as … Read more
What Makes a Man Interesting?
There have been many men. One from Hull, one from Manchester, one from Australia, the Venetian guy, one from London, one from Bangladesh, one from Glasgow, a guy I’d had sex with before, a really smooth guy, like the one from Hull and the one from Manchester, all three of them with very smooth bodies, … Read more
Men Who Can’t Kiss
Everything depends on the way they kiss. The first touch of their lips against yours, the way their tongue fits in your mouth, where they put their hands. We remember the ones who cannot kiss. The lips that are too eager or hesitant, the tongue that invades or lolls or retreats into the mouth like … Read more
