A Year of Fire and Rain
It was a strange year. Not one of the best. Not for me, and not for the world, really. The floods started in Brazil in January, mudslides, buildings and trees and people and animals being washed down hills. And the Arab Spring began with a young seller burning himself alive. And there was the fire … Read more
One Jerks Off While the Other Sews
In 2009 Masanobu Sato masturbated for just under 10 hours, and so became the world record holder in the men’s division of the Masturbate-a-thon in San Francisco. Masanobu trains for it. He swims, he eats well, he spends quite a bit of time at home in front of the TV watching the news or porn … Read more
On Desire and Holocaust Denial
When the German came over you were expecting someone younger. In his Gaydar pictures – clothed and unclothed – he was a cute guy in his early thirties, tall and blonde and slim. The one picture of his arsehole alarmed you, it didn’t look like an innocent arsehole at all, and you liked that. Tall, … Read more
Doing It with Little Guys
Time passes and you forget. He was small, that you do remember, no more than 5′. His name was… what was his name? A Chinese name. Two characters. I think he said his name was William. Yes, I said, but is that your name in Malaysia, too? I showed off my ten words in Mandarin, … Read more
Eager
He’s eager. It’s nice that he’s eager. After a while of not having someone being so eager about me, it’s nice to have someone who is. We haven’t met yet. We’ve exchanged messages online, a few texts, and this afternoon we had a brief chat on the phone. Over the past two weeks, he’s tried … Read more
Not Even E, nor BB
My therapist says I’m a very moral person, and he doesn’t mean that as a compliment. What he means is that I’m judgemental and self-critical and that I should give myself a break. He doesn’t have a problem with me having loads of phone sex, talking to guys (strangers) about fucking their Rottweilers and shitting … Read more
