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I have to be careful what I say... But it's hard. Impromptu confession can be as irresistable as sex.from Andrea Lee's Interesting WomenAll We Want: Neighbours to the Rescue
We don’t always like ourselves. We don’t always feel good about who we are. We don’t always wake up in the morning and think: Nice. We don’t always look forward to the day. There are times when we would rather not have any more days. Or nights. We are not always fans of existing. We … Read more
He Wants to Know What Love Is
The last time I had sex with The German Guy the conversation went a little something like this: “I don’t think I’ve ever been in love” he says. “How do you know if you’re in love.” We’re lying in bed after sex, after good sex – we always have good sex, which mainly involves me … Read more
Animal Instincts: Men and Their Urges
When a beautiful man slips through your fingers there’s not much you can do. You might never see him again. In cities like London you are always losing people. Yesterday at the sauna I lost two. (Somewhere in my head is the Oscar Wilde line about the misfortune of losing one parent, but two!? he … Read more
Gay Man Has Sex with Woman, Almost
During the lunch break, while the others went for rice and chicken soup at Barshu on Frith Street, I went to one of those acupuncture/herbal medicine/massage places on Shaftesbury Avenue to try and get some relief from my shoulder and neck pain. A friend had suggested I go for a chair massage. They’re great, she … Read more
A Gay Times Review of The Confessions
London’s Gay Times magazine published a review of my book and it’s all good! The first review is the sweetest, and it makes me feel that the book is being read and seen and that’s a nice feeling.
Fucking Facilitates Forgiving
Okay, so we made up. The German guy (Stefan) came round to the hotel I was staying at this weekend and although we hadn’t really had a fight over him cancelling or fucking me around last week, the sex was as good as making-up sex. My God, it was good. We were good. Hotel sex … Read more
Lydia Davis is Efficient; or One Strike and You’re Out
We’d arranged to meet at seven but then just before six he texted to say he was not going to make seven and could we meet at twelve when his dinner was over in town. By twelve he meant midnight. If he hadn’t mentioned the dinner I might have agreed to meet. We’ve met several … Read more
Eroticising Homophobic Bullying
To what extend has your desire shaped your body? How much do you work out so that you can 1) have the kind of body you’ve always fantasised about, and/or 2) have the kind of body that others will desire? What have you done to your body to make you attractive to others? Dieted? Pumped … Read more
Roleplay and Foreplay
The German guy wants us to roleplay, and it’s making me anxious. I SMS him: What’s the scenario? And he replies: A job interview. And then, he adds, you fuck me on the table. He’ll turn up in his suit, he says. He likes the whole suit and shirt thing, mainly because he likes unbuttoning … Read more
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